as summer draws to a close ...

... my mindset is now trying to focus on the work waiting for me. summer did come and went as it pleased. i hardly felt relax this particular summer - what with all the work i had to do when summer was at its peak, and then my unfortunate accident happened three days before my scheduled summer holidays which then left me nursing my awful and bloated right knee during my free days from work ... what a feat, eh?

here’s a pretty good picture of how i have spent my free days so far – when i’m lazy, that is. today’s just another day: i get up in the morning, go through my morning rituals (grooming, breakfast, reading the morning paper, etc), laze through midday, get lunch, continue to laze through the day and before you know it, there’s dinner and then afterwards, what’s left pretty much later on will be reading a book or magazine as i await to doze off into dreamland and into a real good night’s sleep.

this summer, due to unavoidable circumstances, i only have 10 days of holiday – or shall i say 10 days away but not exactly free from work. my embarrassing “scooter accident” proved to be a nuisance as i could not do much of the activities i had in mind, much more the ones i have planned weeks in advance. i spent most of my so-called holidays dragging my right leg around the house feeling stupid and sorry for myself. whilst my hubby and son are having a great time outdoors biking, swimming and trekking around the park forests and cliffs, i opted to stay home and nursed my sorry knee – i felt so pathetic but i simply can't enjoy much of anything when i'm in so much pain, or so i believe myself to be. i also realised how short my temper could be when teased about how slow i move about – getting in and out of the car had been excruciatingly painful. i know fully well that all that teasing is my hubby and son’s way of pepping me up ... well pushing me to the limit of getting it over and done with – but it sure get to my nerves that I easily get cross and irritated. i am not actually that handicapped, who am i kidding ... it's just that i believe i have the right to be grouchy and touchy.

i hated the confinement of the couch and the comfort of soft pillows under my stretched leg during the first four days. i wanted to get moving – the short and well-loved promenade around the neighbourhood was simply out of the question ... my horrible and gorged knee was simply not that agreeable and it was not a pretty sight to look at ... i hate the look i get from both acquaintances and strangers i meet in the process. somehow i’m glad the accident happened on a summer’s day when wearing shorts and skirts to move about is a welcome excuse. wearing jeans and slacks or anything like that is totally a painful thought - hah, with my bloated and engorged knee? no, thank you.

but hey, pity me not for i made sure i had quality time spent at home ... yes, by just being lazy, and difficult. i was not all too willing to give in to pain and suffering, i busied myself with small chores around the house, caught up with my book reading, organising my cluttered desk, writing my journals, weaving my thoughts in writing and composing songs, playing my guitar - just doing the light stuff, feeding my fancies and self-proclaimed "freedom" from my ordinary tasks at home. i didn't even have to cook - my hubby took over that part of the task, not because i can't cook, i just don't feel like doing anything, so, we're fed with "take-outs" for a week now: food boxes from the thai, chinese and japanese restaurants. believe me, i can't and won't complain ... perhaps later. right now, i feel more than pampered according to my own liking.

summer's soon over and in a week from now i will have to go back to work. what a thought! right now, i will try to enjoy that bit of sunshine from my porch with a cool drink of lemonade and a bit of chocolate cake - life is good and i love living this life!